money.

a material object.

something that we all have in common, no matter how depleted our amount may be.

When I think of money, I think of people and the many different hands that hold on so tightly to their money. They hold on tightly to a material thing that won't pay their way to eternity.

No. It doesn't matter how much you have. There is no need to be wealthy. It isn't the key to heaven. It is, unfortunately, sometimes a key to a persons heart.

When I think of money....

...I think of being free from debt.

No longer being tied down and having that feeling of relief.

Do you know how many people are in debt for their whole entire lives?

Too many.

It becomes a constant cloud in their life and a weight in their heart.

My debt is paid. It's paid by Him.

My guilt, my shame, and my debt is all paid.

I am free.

...I think of fathers and husbands that have no money to help their wives and children live, and the shame they must feel from having a duty that they cannot fulfill.

There is another way to live. Another way without money.

It's through Him.

He removes that shame.

But so many don't know that and they continue living while calling themselves failures.

...I think of children that maybe have never seen money before in their lives.

They live in dirt.

They pray for a better life.

And they cry because they are so alone.

Money? They have none.

You could have the smallest amount of money and they would still think you're wealthy.

Money links us all together in some way and sadly, it is the common "language" in this world.

Something I want?

That one day every person would be linked together through Christ. That He would be the thing that we all have in common, and that every person in this world would hunger and thirst for Him who has already paid our debt.

I am not one to pour my whole life out. I feel no need to throw a little box of words filled with sunshine or perhaps thunder, depending on where my heart is, into someones small life. I figure that they've already got enough rain pouring on them and have no need for more, or that their life is bursting from all the excitement happening in their own souls that they have no more room for more joy and butterflies to be thrown in. But that's okay.

People need to talk. Most at any rate. It's their way of relieving stress and sharing happiness.
They talk over a cup of coffee, during a dinner, and most of their day is spent talking on a phone.



Some might even talk to walls -- they just need to get it out.

Sometimes the words they speak are calm. Just a friendly chat. Nothing hectic in their voice or emotions. It's a smooth serenade. Something you don't hear in the business world where it's always "argue, fight, and win".



And then there are other times.
The emotions are strong. The words might be bitter. Not bitter towards you, but you just happen to be the best friend that hears all of the ranting.
Tired of it Best Friend? Don't be. You better buck up, because you've got a lot of steaming kettles coming your way in the future.



How do I know? It's just plain nature.
We're humans. We have emotions. We need to cry and sometimes just yell.
No funny faces or comments, Best Friend, because you do it too.


Me? I don't speak a lot. I don't come home from an event excited to tell everyone about what happened, or distressed and needing to spill everything out on a bed with a friend. Perhaps every once and a while I have done such a thing. But to tell you the truth, I don't have any memory of myself doing a thing like that. That's where living with many people comes in handy though. If you can't remember what happened, chances are that they probably do.

Reading the above paragraph probably makes you think that I have no emotions. And if so, let me say that you've been tricked.
I have emotions. Lots of them. Every minute and every hour is different.
"But if you don't talk a lot then how can you get your emotions out?" you're asking?
That's an easy answer...

Tears.



Many many tears I've cried. I'm sensitive, and everything that I feel ends in tears.
Joy, anger, fear, confusion, and every other emotion and feeling makes me cry.
Another thing besides crying that comes out of me is laughter.
Sometimes I laugh for a long time, and then it turns into this weeping-but-still-laughing thing. The first time that happened someone asked me if I was okay. My answer?
"I don't know. I just -- I don't know!"
I really didn't know. And I still don't know.
That same person who asked me if I was okay, later told me something God told her. I can't remember if it was through a dream or maybe just some alone time with Him, but He said to her that she would learn to cry from my crying...or something like that. I can't remember word for word, and when she told me I had no intention of writing it down because I thought she was making a weird joke of some sort.
She wasn't joking.


Through the years I've learned how to be a good listener. That's what my role is right now. It's what I became because I am quiet and the sister closest to me in age does her share of talking and needs someone to listen. So I listen happily.
It's a role that some have a hard time fulfilling. So I am thankful that my duty in being a good sister that listens is not something that is difficult to fulfill.

So I listen, and I do speak. . .

I speak through tears and laughter.